First of all, I’m sorry for my absence of late, I have been trying to get a graduate job in the real world and it is taking up a lot of time, applications, interviews, then preparing, it’s constant, hopefully it will pay off soon.
I have reached what I feel is a monumental point in my weight loss journey. I have (finally!) reached 50 pounds lost. This is a milestone I have been trying to reach for nearly a year and honestly for a long time I’ve worried I would be forever destined to reach 49 then gain weight again. Why oh why has 50 been so hard?
Last year, last May I reached 49 pounds lost, weeks (months) of trying and failing to get that ONE EXTRA POUND left me frustrated. Is it a mental block? Do I start self sabotaging when I reach a milestone such as 50? It’s difficult for me to know, but whatever the reason is it drew my weight loss efforts to a halt.
My weight eventually began to climb again by around 18 pounds (aided by too many lazy takeaways). Aware I was entering dangerous “gain it all back and more” territory I joined Slimming World hoping the public weighting would stem the tide and get me off the bad eating. It worked, I got back down to 49 (then left slimming world due to frustrations over the plan itself), and on Saturday 18th February I reached 50 pounds lost, not just 50, it was actually 50.5. The relief I felt, it was immense. It’s funny, because I still have 80 to go to my target weight of 10 stone but for some reason this one pound has been harder than the previous 50.
I’m not going to focus on why it’s been such a struggle, who knows what’s going on my head, but I’ve made it through it and now I’m focusing on one day at a time. Calorie Counting has been going well on My Fitness Pal, so I’ll keep that up and see what the future holds, hopefully reaching my target weight sometime in my lifetime!